Fixing my life in 30 days: Day 9

3:00 am thoughts, damn!? Okay, let’s do this.

I am sleepy as hell and I am not really sure how conscious I am (I am really bad with many things when I am sleepy.)

If you see any typos in this issue, please bear with me.

I think I have a more or less crisis kinda question today—maybe I should sleep, but I am writing it down anyway.

I questioned this ‘fixing’ thing I have been up to.

I know what I need to fix. Read Day 0 to get a clear picture. But I didn’t work on it today. I hardly did any work today. By any means, it doesn’t mean I had a bad day.

I had a great time with my friends—for three hours during the day and seven hours in the evening. In fact, I just got home thirty minutes ago.

Still…

Despite all the fun I had with my friends, there is still this guilt of not doing enough. There is the guilt of not ticking every little task on my checklist.

To give you more context, I hardly take any holidays and rarely waste (subjectively in my opinion) any time.

Yet the guilt.

Not just that, I spent ninety minutes at my practice, had a really good session and then worked on some operations tasks and content for another ninety minutes.

Adding to that were two episodes of Young Sheldon and one hour of pitching leads for my freelancing biz.

…and yet the guilt.

I am not really sure if I am pushing too hard or if I am not doing enough.

That’s all I had on my mind.

Like always, it felt good writing to you.

I’ll see you tomorrow.

Love,
Vikra